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Hello everyone, it’s Beatrice again.
As you can no doubt guess from my last post, I went ahead with the procedure despite my earlier misgivings, and well, this is me :
Honestly, I didn’t know what to expect, but now I don’t think I could be more pleased. It’s hard to describe, everything feels . . . like . . . new and stuff. Everything is different. I am different. I’m both excited and still a little frightened as the world changes around me, in response to me.
I have been changed for several hours now but my heart is still pounding. My stomach is full of butterflies. I’m still a little lightheaded. It’s a little tricky to type right now, I’m not used to my hands, so please forgive any spelling errors.
As I type this update, I am sitting in my family’s guest room. My parents have closed up my bedroom and put away my childish things so that I can live the next two weeks as much as possible as a real woman. This was a recommendation made by the Program’s guidelines. Participants are advised to create a mental ‘space’ between their normal and adult selves.
Honestly, I can see now why this would make things easier. In fact, it is for that reason that I would like everyone to stop thinking of me as Beatrice, I go by just Bea now, which I think sounds much more mature and appropriate for a young woman.
Today is day (0) of the Program which is calibrated to last for two weeks or most of our inter-semester break. Day (0) is designated as an acclimation day and is a period for us to familiarize ourselves with our new bodies and their capabilities.
But first I want to describe how I got here.
At the heart of the Program is the Procedure. I have been calling it just the Procedure, but fully it is known as Hypo Precocious Developmental Therapy or HPDT. HPD Therapy uses a special form of radiation to induce a state called Precocious Hyper Pubescence, PHP, or ‘Hyper Puberty’.
Naturally occurring cases of PHP have been studied in the past and are believed to be caused by encounters with bursts of cosmic radiation. However, these naturally occurring events are highly unstable and reversion usually occurs within a few hours. The Procedure stabilizes PHP so that the effects last much longer.
When I had the procedure done, I was seated in a special examination chair and a burst of radiation was fired at me from a device that looked like a dental x-ray machine. Instead of x-rays, however, I was bathed in an intense blue light that caused my skin to prickle.
I was surprised to learn that the procedure was not instantaneous, I required a five-minute dose before I began to feel my body changing.
The first thing I noticed was my stomach start to sort of growl and my inside shifted a little uncomfortably. A pressure built just above my pelvis as my reproductive system began to experience Hyper Puberty and then all at once a rush of warmth spread out as my uterus began to release sex hormones into my body.
I gasped for breath as my body surged. It happened so quickly, the hormones were telling my body to become a woman and my cells, nourished by the radiation, quickly began to multiply, building my body and reshaping my tissues into a mature form.
I was suddenly incredibly hot and sweaty, soaking my hospital gown as my body first stretched out and then began to fill in. This was really the scariest part of the whole procedure as my body was incredibly confused by years of maturation spontaneously happening to it.
My small flat butt clenched up involuntarily as my glutes began to develop under the influence of my hormones. I could feel my ass expanding until each butt cheek was larger than my entire bottom moments before. My hips cracked painfully and then my vertebrate crackled and popped one by one as my spine elongated.
In my chest I could feel the energy concentrating, pushing against my child form. First, my nipples hardened painfully, then they began to soften as they swelled and softened, tough fibrous mounds pushed them outwards. They were soaring at first, and painful, but with each passing second my little bee stings budded into grapes, and then ripened into tangerines, before swelling into full round melons. With each moment they grew warmer and more pleasant until my childish cries were replaced by deep feminine moans of delight.
It was so distracting that I hardly even notices the other changes racing to completion. My voice deepening and my lips grew pouty as my face remolded itself, shedding immaturity. My short mousy hair spilled down past my shoulders in a darkening waterfall and I felt an itching where my body was a developing hair under my arms and on my privates.
The radiation began to fade as the machine was turned off, and in a final wave, my body surged towards completion. Strength filled me as my muscles melted away the remaining puppy fat on my stomach and molded my thighs and calves. My breasts seemed to heft themselves a little higher as my pectorals swelled beneath them for support.
All at once the heat that filled my body broke, I spasmed, arching my spine and clenching up all over. I cried out in an unfamiliar voice as a deep sense of release blanked my mind. It was totally terrifying but also strangely exhilarating and when sense returned to me I felt a deep sense of satisfaction.
Although, oddly, I think I might have let out a little pee when it happened as my groinal area felt sort of wet and it was starting to soak uncomfortably into my hair down there. When I asked the doctors about it, they referred me to the Program’s manual. I’ll have to read up on the part they recommended.
When I first stood up, I was totally disoriented. Not only was my body bigger and a different shape, but the way I related to it had also changed completely. Everything from strength to my balance, to the way my legs moved when I walked, had subtly or not so subtly changed.
I felt both heavier and lighter at the same time. My greater size was offset by my much greater strength but I wasn’t used to the momentum of my new limbs.
Other things were different as well. I felt strangely more aware of not just my body, but my surroundings too. I noticed the individual medical machines in ways that I had not before and found myself casually reading the name tags of the doctors and nurses at a glance. This too is a side effect of PHP, causing the brain’s plasticity to drastically increase, allowing me to quickly adapt.
A good thing too, as I needed to acclimate myself to walking once more. Anyways, once my procedure was completed I was released to the custody of a Program nurse who performed a baseline physical, provided me with some basic garments, and escorted me home.
My family was waiting there to greet me and sign all of the paperwork. Basically, the Program requires my parents to sign off confirming that I am in fact their daughter and granting me partial legal emancipation for the duration of my Hyper Puberty.
I have to see that both my mother and father were very surprised to see me and I found myself feeling much like Alleya must have when she was talking to me. It was not that they didn’t believe me, but they were astonished by how significant the change was, and, this is a little embarrassing, my mom said she could hardly believe how beautiful I had become!
Of course, although my parents seemed to be taking it very well, even our dog Poilu was happy enough after sniffing me, someone else in the house was not.
That person is my older sister Valerie. Or rather, my ‘younger’ sister Valerie.
This is probably the most complicated part of things on my family side. Valerie is a year older than me and has always been a bit of an early bloomer while, up until today, I was just the opposite. This means our sibling relationship has often been strained to say the least as she has often been impatient with me. Even worse, she has often resented me when our parents made her be nice.
No, I will say it honestly, there are times when she has been a bully to me.
But now, despite being a little disappointed with my mature height, I am merely five foot two as an adult, I still stand several inches taller than my sister who is on the taller side for her age. My body is that of a woman while hers is still a child’s and with my new attentiveness, I can see the complicated feelings crossing her face as our parents explain how things are going to be for the next few weeks.
Is it wrong that I feel a little pleased with this reversal?
I don’t want to be a bully to my sister, of course, but I feel Valerie missing out on the program by a year while I get to be a bigger sister for two weeks is something she deserves.
I think the best revenge will be to live an amazing two weeks as a woman while Valerie can only watch and wait and hope for the day she can enjoy adulthood naturally.
I wound up spending quite a bit of time talking with my parents. We had a lot to go over with the nurse before signing all of the paperwork. Valerie got bored, or maybe she was just irritated about having to call me Big Sister, and wandered off to her room.
After everything was finished up, I unpacked in the guestroom and went to take a shower and wash off the sweat from the procedure. I was given a basic bag of toiletries, everything essential that I will need to care for my new body. But for this first time, I just scrubbed myself in soap and stood in the jets and steam.
It’s a little embarrassing to tell you all this, but I really couldn’t stop touching and exploring myself while I stood under the shower. I was surprised by every new curve and contour of my flesh. And I was even more surprised how right they felt. I’ve never been very aware of my body before today, you know, but now I am intensely aware of it. And my body feels like this other me. Do you know? It’s part of me, but also it’s own animal, and it’s confused by why it has suddenly inexplicably flourished. It doesn’t know what to do with its new strength and neither do I.
That’s actually why I started writing. It was either write or pace the guestroom like a caged animal. I just have all of this energy right now. And also impatience. I don’t want to waste any of my precious time.
Just a little while ago my parents told me they were going shopping with Valerie. I think they wanted to get my sister out of the house before she starts to sulk. Maybe getting out of the house would be a good idea. But I’m now I’m not sure what I would do.
I’ve never had so much energy inside me before. But when I was frustrated I would normally go burn it off at the park. However, I don’t think the park managers or the Program staff would be happy with a grown woman misusing the playsets.
What do adults do with their excess energy?
I can do whatever I want, but I can’t seem to choose.