Avatar Puberty – by Bubba1995

Little Korra was out playing with her Polar Bear Dog Puppy, Naga, who’d only been born a Month ago.

Korra had recently been discovored to be the next Avatar, and had already begun training. She couldn’t wait to grow up and become the most powerful Avatar in the history of the World. At least, that’s what she believed.

Right now she could only do very weak Waterbending and little puffs of Earthbending, and Fire Bending. Nothing on Airbending yet. But she was only Eight. So she had time.

That night, she slept in her bed, with Naga curled up next to her.
The poor girl was tossing and turning, she’d been having nightmares recently, about evil. Bad people doing bad things, trying to hurt people, trying to hurt Korra and the ones she loved like her parents, or Tenzin or Katara.

The little girl gasped as she sat up wide awake. She woke Naga up and the puppy licked her face.
“It’s okay girl. I’m sorry I woke you.” Korra said as she petted the pup.

Suddenly there was a bright light that flooded her room. Kora shielded her eyes until the light died down a bit. When she looked at the source, she was shocked at what she saw.

Colored blue and transparent, was an Air Nomad Man, she knew by the clothes he wore and the arrow tattoo he had on his head.
“Hello Korra.” He said in a friendly tone.
“Don’t be afraid. Do you know who I am?” He asked. His voiced sounded echoy.

Little Korra got out of bed and walked closer to the man, looking up at him she tilted her head.
It took her a moment but her eyes widened when she realized who this was. It was none other than her past life.

“Aang?” The little girl finally said.
“That’s right.” Aang replied. “It’s good to see you again Korra.”

“See me again? But…you died before I was born.’ Korra replied.
“Yes. But I am always with you…we all are.” Aang explained. He reached out and touched her forehead.

Her eyes glowed and suddenly she was somewhere else. In the clouds, surrounded by other people. Her other past lives.

Roku, Kyoshi, and all the others.

“Woah…” Korra said in childish awe.
She then turned back to Aang.

“Why did you take me here?” She asked.

“I’m sorry. But theres much evil in the world Korra.” Aang explained. “You know this because of your nightmares.”

“So…those are real then?” asked Korra.
“Yes, the World is in great danger and it needs you’re help.” Aang explained.

Korra felt a little scared. “But…I’m so little, and haven’t trained that much!” She cried.

Aang gave her a smile. “Hmm..Never stopped me. And you’re braver than you think you are.” He said while kneeling down to her.

“Plus..we’re going to help you.”

“How?” Asked Korra.
“By doing something that’s only be done in the most darkest hours.” Aang explained.
“We’re transfering our power into you. You’ll be able to master ther four elements and gain the knowledge to do so, it will also change you physically to contain such power. Only until the danger is over.”

Korra listened to every word. Feeling braver all ready.
“Are you ready?” Aang asked.
Korra’s face turned serious, she gulped as she then nodded.

“Good…We’re counting on you Korra.” Aang reached out and touched her forehead again.

Korra awoke to Naga sniffing her on the floor. She sat up and then stood up, lookng at her body, she didn’t feel any different yet.

Then it hit her, a wave of energy flooded her whole body.

“WOOOAAAHHH!” She cried as her hair started blowing in a wind that came from nowhere.
She felt funny, falling on her hands and knees, her eyes shut tight and she gritted her teeth.
“HHHHNNNNGGGGG!!” She groaned as the knowledge of the Four Elements flooded her head.

Suddenly her eyes shot open and were glowing white, she had entered the Avatar State.
Her small body was lifted into the air as the wind got more intense.
Naga backed into a corner and just watched, not understanding what was happening.

Korra’s body twitched as she was forced into an arch as her transformation began.

First it started with her feet, they shook rapidly as they both grew bigger one after the other, as each one did so, a large snow boot formed on each one.

Next came her legs, they kicked as they grew longer in several spurts, her pants grew along with them. They became fuller and muscular as well as her thighs thickened as well swelling with a stretching noise.

Up next were her hips, they widened with several cracks, growing to child bearing proportions.
Her butt pulsed a few times before swelling larger and larger, growing into a large heartshape.

Now that her bottom half was finished, her top half was next.
Her torso and arms stretched longer at the same time, her hands twitched a few times before they grew bigger, her fingers followed, each one growing long and slender like that of a young woman’s.

Her arms pulsed rapidly as they swelled bigger as well, muscles growing all the way up them as her shoulders grew bigger as well.

Her torso filled out next, her baby fat sucked away rapidly as her body became heavier and stronger by the second. Her waist curved into a hourglass shape as a six pack popped onto her stomach.
Her back arched into a womanly curve as her back muscles grew big and strong.

From under her top, which had grown as well, her dark nipples had doubled in size, the skin behind them was pulsing rapidly as two buds slowly pushed out. Those buds then began to grow into two breast.

The sensation felt good as they pushed against her skin tight top, they swelled to a rather impressive size, as her Mother was well endowered as well.

Her collarbone popped out as her neck grew longer and thicker.
Her face was next as her childish roundness was left behind. Her head grew bigger and elongated into a more oval shape. Her teeth were replaced with adult ones as her jaw widneded and her chin became more angular.

Her cheekbones rose up as her nose grew bigger. Her lips opened as they became fuller. Her eyebrows thinned and her eyes grew bigger.

Lastly her ponytails twitched as her hair grew longer, her two front pig tails grew longer down to her shoulders, while her back one went to her upper back.

The wind faded and the glowing stopped, Korra let out a soft moan as she fell to the ground.

Gone was the little girl, now a fully groan young Avatar Woman was there.

Korra woke up again to Naga sniffing her. She groaned as she pulled herself up.

“Woah!” She said in her new voice as she looked down at her much larger body. She cupped her new boobs and then felt her muscles.

“This is…amazing!” She said as she twisted to check out her butt.
“I feel so much more…smarter!”
“And stronger!” She said flexing her muscles.

She understood all of the Elements now.
So she snuck outside and practiced a little with each one.

After she got used to her older body, she got serious.
“Time to head for Republic City.” She said to herself.
“But how?”

Suddenly Naga started glowing just like she did.
Korra watched as the small Polar Bear Puppy began to grow.

Naga grew bigger and bigger by the second until she was a full grown Polar Bear Dog.

Korra gave her a smile and then walked over and petted her much larger head.
“Yeah..that’ll do! Ready girl?” Naga barked in a deeper tone.

Korra hopped up on her back and they rode off into the night.
Little 10 year old Asami Sato was walking playfully down her street in Republic City.

Suddenly a large Polar Bear dog rushed past her, knocking over the little girl in a startle.
“Ahhh!” She cried. Whered that come from?

But before she fell in the mud, a gust of air from nowhere caught her and sat her back up.
“Sorry Kid! My fault.” The voice came from a young woman on top of the Polar Bear Dog.

She gave the little girl a friendly smile. “Anyways, gotta go!” She road off as a group of Metal Benders chased her.

Asami was speechless.
“Who was that?!” She thought to herself. She blushed and giggled.
“Well…whoever she was…she was kinda cute!”


An older story that Bela thought I should share here.


“Her name is Wendy,” Brian said, stroking the computer case. “Say, hello.”


“Hello, Wendy,” Adam said, addressing the machine.


“Oh, hello,” said a woman’s voice from the speakers near the monitor. “How do you do?”Continue reading

You’ll Grow Into It

Another old post from DA given new life here. Enjoy!


“Your mother is here,” Dylan said.


“Is she?” Samantha asked, turning to look in the direction he was facing. “Oh, there she is.”


The old woman was standing by the doorway, holding a box tucked under her arm.Continue reading

Stories by bela04

Greetings everyone!

In the past year, I did some great Role Plays with a friend who pushed me into it. I’m still not a big fan of it but I admit, it was great to share these types of ideas of mine with someone, and helped me to get creative a little. I’m aware that this type of thing only works if the players really like the exact topic they do.
But I thought why not turn some of these ideas into short stories? Well, here is a try  – once I tried it on our discord server with not much of a response – so please only read it if you like my type of stories and/or darker elements. If there is an audience for it, I might share more in the future 🙂

Note: Of course, I did my best with the language and used some help from an online translator but I’m aware it’s still far from a real “enjoyable read”.

I was babysitting little Amy… an easy job.
We were playing hide and seek so I had to find her… again.
It wasn’t too much fun for me but at least I got the right about of money for it.
“…3, 2, 1… I’m going”
It will be easy. She always giggles too loud so almost every time I know where is she. But I keep her waiting for a little to make her believe that I don’t know where she is hiding.
The sounds are coming from the upstairs, I walk up and search for the giggle’s source. Bathroom… there we go. I start yelling into the air.
“Oh, where could be you? Amy? I can’t find you! But I know you must be here…” – and I slowly take steps towards the bathroom.
“Giggle, come closer, David! It’s getting hotter and hotter!”
She’s definitely in the bathroom.
“Oh, I think I know where this little girl can be… is there an Amy in the bathroom?” – I wanted to finish it, I only had 10 minutes left from this sitting.
“Oh… Maybe… Maybe I’m not… why don’t you try it? giggle”
I try to open the door but It’s locked… strange.
“Alright, Amy. You must be in there, so why don’t you let me in?”
“Hmm… maybe I’m in here! Why don’t you take a peek through the keyhole, hon?”
What on earth she’s doing? I kneel since the hole is very low to peek through…
“Okay, our time is up your Momm…. my…?” – I look through and a wave rushes through my body!

OMG, SHE’S GOT BIG TITTIES! I’M LOOKING AT A PAIR OF BIG TITTIES!! – I went crazy like a little boy.
“Giggle, do you like what you see honey?” – I hear her talking to me on the other side.
I can’t take my eyes off the keyhole as I can feel the sudden change going over my body. In seconds I shrink so much that first I need to stand on my feet to keep watching her big titties and even in my standing I have to use my tiptoe to be able to reach the keyhole.
I can feel my clothes are now too big for my new size, all of them are now too baggy for me.
I must look like some little boy who’s playing dressing up in his big brother’s clothes… I want to check on myself and understand what’s going on but I can’t take my eyes off Amy’s huge tits.
It feels like I’m stuck on that bathroom door… almost like this would be the first time… to see big titties.
She stands up and gets out of the bathtub moving towards the door. I don’t have time to realize what’s going on when she opens the door making me fall out of my pants. I land on my bare bottom…

That’s the first time I can see how small I am! I look at my hands and realize, I can’t be older than 13! I lost 10 years just because of her enormous titties!
AS she walks out covering her huge tits with her arm, my erection becomes visible since my now oversized undies are too large for me now.
“Giggle, haven’t your Mommy told you before? It’s not polite to peep on girls! Aww… little David has a stiff on Amy’s big boobies?”
“B-but… how… w-what happened?!” – I asked.
She bends down to be still holding her massive tits with her now large arms and hands: “Let’s call it magic! I hope you like it this way since you’re going to stay like this for a week!”

I was shocked, I wanted answers, wanted to say something but I felt something is going to explode. I looked up one more time to the now-adult Amy who smiled at me and said: “Run along honey!”
I ran to the bathroom where she just was, locked the door, and started to do it until my Mom arrived and took me home.


Two (Commission) – Ch 7.1 – lostandwhatever

Series commissioned by ageunknown404, originally published on my Patreon.

Continued from Chapter 6.


Greyson drifted back into consciousness at a gradual comfortable pace. Nothing felt as though it were rushing him back into the world, and time seemed nonexistent in his mind. The world itself felt soft, like it was padded with cotton and foam. Greyson felt soft as well, as if all the hard edges had been sanded away from his life. There were no points anymore, no edges, no separations, only the smoothness of seamless rest.Continue reading

Looking for Advice (4)

Hi guys, it’s Bea again.

Just wanted to respond to some of your comments before turning in for the night.

“Well, I’m glad you’re not alone among your friends who is going through this program. And if Alleya is any indication, you’ll be looking quite beautiful yourself after the procedure. You’ll have to be sure to check on your other friends who are in the program.” – BLZBub

The Program selected students by lottery from all around the area. Unfortunately, not many of my close friends were chosen. And due to the Program’s guidelines, I am prohibited from interacting with any of them until I change back. This is part of the Program’s policy of separating our ‘normal’ and ‘adult’ lives to reduce psychological stress.

And yes, Alleya’s adult body did turn out quite lovely. It is not uncommon at all for Hyper Puberty to produce superior physical specimens. In fact, she sent this to me just a little while ago.



“Just wanted you to see some of the Pajama’s I bought. Feels naughty! XOXO” – Alleya

Honestly it has me a little worried again to see my friend acting suddenly so bold as to wear something so adult. Does she not realize what her body looks like now? I think she might be a little intoxicated by the effects of hyper puberty. But then, her parents have always been the kind to spoil Alleya rotten. With her newfound confidence, she no doubt intends to experience every aspect of being a woman.

“Good luck. Don’t forget who you are. You’ll be a great adult” – Ashmander

Thanks so much, Ash. I have to admit that this has weighed heavily on my mind since I met Alleya this morning. I was sort of afraid that the Procedure would turn me into a different person. In a way, I think it has. My body has been transformed into a grown woman’s body. My mind certainly cannot remain the mind of a young girl.

“now you can compare yourself with Alleya au pair!
I’m glad the process went perfectly, I hope you can teach your sister a lesson in humility.
in my opinion you should hear if you have friends who have participated in the project, go out together and have fun” – jojo93able

I have to admit, when I looked at Alleya’s e-mail I did feel compelled to measure myself against her and I was a little annoyed by how confident she seems. I guess I might be a little disappointed to be honest. This body is not bad at all, but it wasn’t exactly what I was expecting. I’m rather short for one and somewhat on the ‘thicc’ side as they say online. I have a rather fat bottom. I don’t know, perhaps I am being selfish wanting more?

“Wow Beatrice you grew into a real beauty. And your body is incredible! Did you expect to become so attractive or was it a complete surprise? Would you say your great new body is a side effect of the procedure, or genetically were you always destined to grow into this? If the procedure takes a while to come into effect, do you think more changes might happen to you?” – Keyser

Why thank you, Keyser! It feels quite incredible as well!

While I’m not exactly surprised how I turned out, I can’t exactly say I predicted it. The women in my family are not unattractive, but it is very unlikely I would grow into this naturally. I have to thank Hyper Puberty for my superior looks and physique.

So it is a little strange to be complimented when the woman you see before you is a product of science!

“Just try not to rub it in your sister’s face, envy can be an ugly thing. As for how to use your energy, adults usually work out. So if your parents have some exercise equipment, you can use those until you can get some gym clothes and go to the gym.” – BLZBub

The thing is, it has always been difficult being Valerie’s sister. But I was so hungry for her approval that I didn’t understand that until I came back from the clinic today. How to put it? When I came home in this form, all of her mean words and deeds suddenly felt so petty and small.

Don’t misunderstand, I don’t resent Valerie as I am now, I just . . . don’t want her melodrama to interfere with my time as a woman.

I am a little worried however. My sister holds grudges. I’m sure she will bide her time until my hyper puberty fades and I return to my natural form. Which could be trouble for my normal self later.

I did decide to take your advice about exercise. Luckily my dad bought some exercise equipment a few years ago that he keeps out in the garage, and my mom has some workout stretchy workout clothes that I don’t she’d mind if I borrow. Honestly, they only ever seem to use them for a couple of months after Christmas each year, so I don’t think they’ll mind.


The Program Guidelines list many benefits to vigorous physical activity. Although my fitness is a product of science, exercise will help my brain to acclimate to its new form and prolong my Hyper Puberty by stressing my adult body to maintain heightened hormone levels.

And of course it just feels good.

In fact working out felt incredible. Testing my body was eye-opening to say the least and incredibly satisfying compared to my formerly puny self. My newly enlarged and densified muscles purred beneath my mom’s lycra workout clothes and it wasn’t long before I was soaked in my own sweat.


My ass especially turned out to be amazing. A huge amount of my muscle mass is concentrated there and I could feel it work and clench powerfully as I followed the exercises in the Program handbook. I quickly grew soaked with perspiration and could feel little rivulets of sweat slithering down my pillowed cheeks. The sensation was rather thrilling!


But most astonishing was my almost limitless stamina. I really had to work hard to exhaust myself. Each time I felt like I was about to reach my limit, gasping for breath and shaking, I would break through with another surge of energy and feel compelled to keep going. My shaking would cease, my breath would deepen, and I would push myself further again.

My adult cells felt like they were on fire, but it hurt so good. My body loved every moment of pushing until I found its limits. I just couldn’t stop until finally I felt my body reaching a contended state of exhaustion. I was totally drained yet totally satisfied with myself.

After working out, I was soaked in my own sweat. My adult body reeks much more intensely when dirty. Or maybe womanhood had enhanced my sense of smell. But in any case, I peeled off the workout clothes without delay and took another shower to wash away the filth.

But this time, showering too was different. The sensations were much heightened after working out. There was a warning in the hand book that exercise could create a heightened state arousal, but I didn’t really understand what that meant. What it mean was that the water hitting me, and my hands touching myself as I washed, caused waves of tingles to spark all across my skin.

I get really worm while I washing, much warmer than the water alone could explain and so I . . . well . . . I was curious about something and decided to experiment. I noticed that my nipples had swollen up and become a little sensitive. So I adjusted the water jets so that they would hit hardest on my breasts and after I sense of build up . . . I felt the surging feeling again!

Not as strong as when I changed, but enough to make me cry out and throw my hands against the show wall of balance. I really wanted to make it happen again, but I decided it was best to wait for now until I understand my body better.

My parents were home by the time I emerged from my shower and had brought takeout for dinner, so I dried off and put on my mom’s bathrobe.


I didn’t see Valerie, but I’m sure she’s skulking somewhere and I have to imagine she’ll be furious if she catches a glimpse of me.

So here I am now, laying in bed like a guest in my own home. The luxurious guest sheets caressing my equally luxurious skin. I think I’m going to sign for now. Can’t wait for tomorrow.

XOXO – Bea.

Looking for Advice (3)

Hello everyone, it’s Beatrice again.

As you can no doubt guess from my last post, I went ahead with the procedure despite my earlier misgivings, and well, this is me :




Honestly, I didn’t know what to expect, but now I don’t think I could be more pleased. It’s hard to describe, everything feels . . . like . . . new and stuff. Everything is different. I am different. I’m both excited and still a little frightened as the world changes around me, in response to me.

I have been changed for several hours now but my heart is still pounding. My stomach is full of butterflies. I’m still a little lightheaded. It’s a little tricky to type right now, I’m not used to my hands, so please forgive any spelling errors.

As I type this update, I am sitting in my family’s guest room. My parents have closed up my bedroom and put away my childish things so that I can live the next two weeks as much as possible as a real woman. This was a recommendation made by the Program’s guidelines. Participants are advised to create a mental ‘space’ between their normal and adult selves.

Honestly, I can see now why this would make things easier. In fact, it is for that reason that I would like everyone to stop thinking of me as Beatrice, I go by just Bea now, which I think sounds much more mature and appropriate for a young woman.

Today is day (0) of the Program which is calibrated to last for two weeks or most of our inter-semester break. Day (0) is designated as an acclimation day and is a period for us to familiarize ourselves with our new bodies and their capabilities.

But first I want to describe how I got here.

At the heart of the Program is the Procedure. I have been calling it just the Procedure, but fully it is known as Hypo Precocious Developmental Therapy or HPDT. HPD Therapy uses a special form of radiation to induce a state called Precocious Hyper Pubescence, PHP, or ‘Hyper Puberty’.

Naturally occurring cases of PHP have been studied in the past and are believed to be caused by encounters with bursts of cosmic radiation. However, these naturally occurring events are highly unstable and reversion usually occurs within a few hours. The Procedure stabilizes PHP so that the effects last much longer.

When I had the procedure done, I was seated in a special examination chair and a burst of radiation was fired at me from a device that looked like a dental x-ray machine. Instead of x-rays, however, I was bathed in an intense blue light that caused my skin to prickle.

I was surprised to learn that the procedure was not instantaneous, I required a five-minute dose before I began to feel my body changing.

The first thing I noticed was my stomach start to sort of growl and my inside shifted a little uncomfortably. A pressure built just above my pelvis as my reproductive system began to experience Hyper Puberty and then all at once a rush of warmth spread out as my uterus began to release sex hormones into my body.

I gasped for breath as my body surged. It happened so quickly, the hormones were telling my body to become a woman and my cells, nourished by the radiation, quickly began to multiply, building my body and reshaping my tissues into a mature form.

I was suddenly incredibly hot and sweaty, soaking my hospital gown as my body first stretched out and then began to fill in. This was really the scariest part of the whole procedure as my body was incredibly confused by years of maturation spontaneously happening to it.

My small flat butt clenched up involuntarily as my glutes began to develop under the influence of my hormones. I could feel my ass expanding until each butt cheek was larger than my entire bottom moments before. My hips cracked painfully and then my vertebrate crackled and popped one by one as my spine elongated.

In my chest I could feel the energy concentrating, pushing against my child form. First, my nipples hardened painfully, then they began to soften as they swelled and softened, tough fibrous mounds pushed them outwards. They were soaring at first, and painful, but with each passing second my little bee stings budded into grapes, and then ripened into tangerines, before swelling into full round melons. With each moment they grew warmer and more pleasant until my childish cries were replaced by deep feminine moans of delight.

It was so distracting that I hardly even notices the other changes racing to completion. My voice deepening and my lips grew pouty as my face remolded itself, shedding immaturity. My short mousy hair spilled down past my shoulders in a darkening waterfall and I felt an itching where my body was a developing hair under my arms and on my privates.

The radiation began to fade as the machine was turned off, and in a final wave, my body surged towards completion. Strength filled me as my muscles melted away the remaining puppy fat on my stomach and molded my thighs and calves. My breasts seemed to heft themselves a little higher as my pectorals swelled beneath them for support.

All at once the heat that filled my body broke, I spasmed, arching my spine and clenching up all over. I cried out in an unfamiliar voice as a deep sense of release blanked my mind. It was totally terrifying but also strangely exhilarating and when sense returned to me I felt a deep sense of satisfaction.

Although, oddly, I think I might have let out a little pee when it happened as my groinal area felt sort of wet and it was starting to soak uncomfortably into my hair down there. When I asked the doctors about it, they referred me to the Program’s manual. I’ll have to read up on the part they recommended.

When I first stood up, I was totally disoriented. Not only was my body bigger and a different shape, but the way I related to it had also changed completely. Everything from strength to my balance, to the way my legs moved when I walked, had subtly or not so subtly changed.

I felt both heavier and lighter at the same time. My greater size was offset by my much greater strength but I wasn’t used to the momentum of my new limbs.

Other things were different as well. I felt strangely more aware of not just my body, but my surroundings too. I noticed the individual medical machines in ways that I had not before and found myself casually reading the name tags of the doctors and nurses at a glance. This too is a side effect of PHP, causing the brain’s plasticity to drastically increase, allowing me to quickly adapt.

A good thing too, as I needed to acclimate myself to walking once more. Anyways, once my procedure was completed I was released to the custody of a Program nurse who performed a baseline physical, provided me with some basic garments, and escorted me home.

My family was waiting there to greet me and sign all of the paperwork. Basically, the Program requires my parents to sign off confirming that I am in fact their daughter and granting me partial legal emancipation for the duration of my Hyper Puberty.

I have to see that both my mother and father were very surprised to see me and I found myself feeling much like Alleya must have when she was talking to me. It was not that they didn’t believe me, but they were astonished by how significant the change was, and, this is a little embarrassing, my mom said she could hardly believe how beautiful I had become!

Of course, although my parents seemed to be taking it very well, even our dog Poilu was happy enough after sniffing me, someone else in the house was not.

That person is my older sister Valerie. Or rather, my ‘younger’ sister Valerie.

This is probably the most complicated part of things on my family side. Valerie is a year older than me and has always been a bit of an early bloomer while, up until today, I was just the opposite. This means our sibling relationship has often been strained to say the least as she has often been impatient with me. Even worse, she has often resented me when our parents made her be nice.

No, I will say it honestly, there are times when she has been a bully to me.

But now, despite being a little disappointed with my mature height, I am merely five foot two as an adult, I still stand several inches taller than my sister who is on the taller side for her age. My body is that of a woman while hers is still a child’s and with my new attentiveness, I can see the complicated feelings crossing her face as our parents explain how things are going to be for the next few weeks.

Is it wrong that I feel a little pleased with this reversal?

I don’t want to be a bully to my sister, of course, but I feel Valerie missing out on the program by a year while I get to be a bigger sister for two weeks is something she deserves.

I think the best revenge will be to live an amazing two weeks as a woman while Valerie can only watch and wait and hope for the day she can enjoy adulthood naturally.

I wound up spending quite a bit of time talking with my parents. We had a lot to go over with the nurse before signing all of the paperwork. Valerie got bored, or maybe she was just irritated about having to call me Big Sister, and wandered off to her room.

After everything was finished up, I unpacked in the guestroom and went to take a shower and wash off the sweat from the procedure. I was given a basic bag of toiletries, everything essential that I will need to care for my new body. But for this first time, I just scrubbed myself in soap and stood in the jets and steam.

It’s a little embarrassing to tell you all this, but I really couldn’t stop touching and exploring myself while I stood under the shower. I was surprised by every new curve and contour of my flesh. And I was even more surprised how right they felt. I’ve never been very aware of my body before today, you know, but now I am intensely aware of it. And my body feels like this other me. Do you know? It’s part of me, but also it’s own animal, and it’s confused by why it has suddenly inexplicably flourished. It doesn’t know what to do with its new strength and neither do I.

That’s actually why I started writing. It was either write or pace the guestroom like a caged animal. I just have all of this energy right now. And also impatience. I don’t want to waste any of my precious time.

Just a little while ago my parents told me they were going shopping with Valerie. I think they wanted to get my sister out of the house before she starts to sulk. Maybe getting out of the house would be a good idea. But I’m now I’m not sure what I would do.

I’ve never had so much energy inside me before. But when I was frustrated I would normally go burn it off at the park. However, I don’t think the park managers or the Program staff would be happy with a grown woman misusing the playsets.

What do adults do with their excess energy?

I can do whatever I want, but I can’t seem to choose.